Letting Go and Moving On

Sometimes there are things we just don't have control over. We can try as hard as we want, but if you did all that you can do and it wasn't enough, it's okay. It's even okay to cry. Breakdown, cry and cry. But only for a little while. It's okay to feel hurt and disappointment and fear and like everything is spinning out of your control. We're human. These emotions are going to happen and it's best to just let them happen.
I can say this because I recently went through this myself. For a long time I had blamed myself for what had happened and I let it eat me alive. I kept it in and let in build up inside for months. Holding it all inside changed me for the worst as a person and a friend. I was blind to the ways I was acting and no one could tell me anything. But one night it finally got to me and I cried. I cried and I cried and I finally told myself that I need to let go. I did all I can do and it's time to let go. Start over, it's okay. Stop doing this to yourself. My closest friends helped me by being completely real and honest with me that night. Was it hard to hear some of the things they told me? Of course, hearing the truth about yourself from someone else is always the hardest part. But ever since that night I've felt lighter and more at ease. It's a crazy turn-around for me forsure. Do I cry now? Well, this was recent so it still hurts a little. I cry a little but it isn't as bad as it was before. These little cries are me getting rid of all of what I was holding onto before. I'll be completely free of it soon, I can feel it and from this I can move on and do for me. So from this experience I learned that it's okay to cry. I have to let go, I have to be able to accept that not everything is gonna go the way I want it to, I have to be honest with myself and not let my emotions get the best of me. From this will I build walls around my heart? Of course, it's my defense mechanism. But they're not impenetrable walls. These walls are built because I have grown wiser, even in my young age. The walls will remain, I'll just be careful with who it is I let in past these walls. My heart isn't on display anymore like I used to have it. I have learned, I've grown, I've accepted, I've adapted.